The Stress --> Indulgence --> Remorse Pathway...Can you relate??

I've noticed a pattern in my life. After a long, hard, stressful week at work, by the end of the week, I feel I deserve to reward myself. Perhaps your reward system, is a movie out, a long, languid love-affair with a cigar or other tobacco product of choice (which I do not recommend!), or a fine wine, cocktail or other adult beverage. But, without fail, my guilty pleasure is indulgence - and over-indulgence - in food and wine. This is so wrong on many levels.
First of all, I am a Personal Trainer and owner of my own fitness company which promotes a healthy lifestyle including proper amounts of exercise, a balanced diet and adequate amounts of sleep (as I'm writing this it's 2am, but that's another story for another blog). Where's the congruency in what I preach versus what I practice? Here's my analysis...
The MORE stressful my work week, the MORE I feel I owe it to myself to reward myself with food and beverage, the MORE remorse I feel at my over-indulgence. It's like a flow-chart or a biochemical pathway. Happens the same way everytime, without fail. So, here's my hypothesis...
Just like in biochemistry, most pathways are controlled via negative feedback. If the end material product becomes too plenteous, it backs up the system and the production of C which comes from B which started from A is halted so that C is never produced. In the pathway, or should I say viscious cycle of my life, when Remorse (my A) becomes too great, it backs up the Indulgence (B) and makes me change the source or amount of Stress (A) in my life (does anyone out there following this line of thinking? Can you relate??). So, by nature, negative feedback will make me alter my behavior to reduce the amount of Stress in my life so that it does not end in Remorse. Or, knowing this, I can choose to monitor the amount of Stress in my life so that it does produce Induglence, which in turn produces Remorse. But, on the other hand, Stress is the motivator that makes me change things in my life, set goals, precedence and even write this blog, so a little Stress has to be good, right? (I think they call that eu-stress...). I say all of this to say, I'm still aiming for balance. A little Stress to keep me going, but not so much that it ends in Remorse.
I guess I have picked the right career. I spend so much of my time and energy trying to find optimal health and balance in my life, I feel well-equipped to understand and help others around me who are going through similar situations. And I love doing it. It's my passion! I think I'll go back to bed now. Time to reduce the Stress...